Do I just Not Want to be Straight?

I like girls physically but boys emotionally. I get crushes on boys but i only ever imagine us hanging out, never holding hands or anything more. I've never had a girl crush before but i'd rather be with one. If dreams are supposed to mean something: I dream of guys more frequently but just laughing and hanging out. Then other times either i'm kissing other girls, watching two girls kiss each other, or me being a guy and about to have sex with a girl. I find boys attractive but not compared to girls. I don't like their hair or their penis, but i hear that most straight women feel that way too. Basically, i feel like i'm wanting to be gay, but i can't because i'm emotionally attracted to guys. I know i'm bi-curious, but anything after that i'm confused. And help? Thanks